every beat of my heart

Monday, April 30, 2007

sports day has finally come to an end.. i could say it was a pretty disappointing end.. but it was all expected. and if you realised? i have been living in denial for quite some time. juz wanted to boost some morale and make everyone do their best for their events.. guess on a whole (: well done alpha. i'm proud of each and every one of you participants. =) for taking part it already iz a part you've fulfilled as a alpha warrior.

so yeah.. final results shows that gamma won both girls team and boys team and hence overall champions as well.. well done gamma (: roadrun sports day all to gamma.. but hold it. we will break and destroy that track record of gamma. alpha for titans!!! (: alpha was second for roadrun, second for girls team and second for overall for sports day. SECOND!! we will work harder for that first. we will..!!

well.. today's events were the 100m finals, and all the relays.
100m(TA Girls): melissa-1st!
100m(TA Boys): justin-2n!
100m(Girls): judith-1st! charlene-2nd!
100m(Boys): wilson-2nd!

and the relays..
4x100m(TA Girls): 3rd (:
4x100m(Girls): 1st (: and 3rd? (:
4x100m(Boys): 2nd and 5th (:
4x400m(Girls): 2nd and ...?
4x400m(Boys): 2nd and ...?

big shoutouts to my lovely teammates. this year wasn't as exciting as last year's sports day that's for sure. we took not even one photo together ): sigh. but still..

my 4by1 team comprising of ho junjun, judith sim and lau zihui (: junjun was the one with good start judith was the one who flew on the track and zihui was the one who maintained it so well.. and it turns out that me? i almost lost it to gamma. grace was chasing me real close ): and i tink i really didn't perform well.. i didn't speed my max and i didn't feel the strain of a well ran race ): i couldn't feel as if i could fly ): but nonetheless we clinched gold with their efforts (: yay.

den there's my 4by4 team comprising of ho junjun, sarah tan and judith sim (: geex. well done girls (: and jun! it's not your fault. dun ever think of it. i really should have opened my strides and reminded myself to pump that last 100m with my arms ): argh ): we came in second.. but due to some weird unreasonable disqualification of the gamma team in front. we got the gold. ): and i'm not proud of that gold, really. it feels as though i dun deserve it. sigh. den there was the screw up with the officials for both the races and cheerleading.. sigh.. why cant they juz let us be as we are?? why do they all have to start handpicking at us and finding faults with us..?? doesn't make their life much easier as it iz for us.

oh and did i say?? serene ze arvin and yanliang came back today!! AHA!! (: so cool right?? very long never see them le. it was really a shock to see arvin first xD oh well.. i suddenly miss all the past trainings we had, i suddenly missed last july when we had our track seasons.. that's when we bonded. june holiday trainings...

well.. it juz feels as efforts have gone down the drain. i wish i had done better for this whole event. i wish i had thrown in more people to join certain events. i wish i had made it compulsory for every TAkid to take up at least one event. i wish i wish i wish. i guess i did what i could at that point in time? i juz wish i had put in more effort that's all ):
bagged home medals and trophies but no point in having them when you dun have anyone to share the joy with you. it's sad. very saddening ):
and i'm sunburnt on my face. it's red like a cooked crab. and the surprising thing iz it's only the top half of my face. and more on the right than on the left. now i look lopsided.. waha. and my right ear iz tipped in red too. whatever happened to my left?! sigh.

*throbs @20:44
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Sunday, April 29, 2007

i love w115 (:

wad a night tonight (:
wad a week i had (:
smiles smiles and more smiles (: but it's always good to know that between smiles, frownies do happen ): but what matters most iz that the frownies are either washed away, forgotten or covered up by the smiles (: yay to smileys (:

well oh well.. knee's still acting up so whatever to it!!! after sports day relays, i'll be resting the stupid lousy thingy that's causing me so much torment.. and hopefully it'll be sweet and kind enough to leave me alone (: yay. still.. thanks to everyone who was sooooo concerned bout this little thingy i have on me (: *loves* goes out to you all!!! x)

so wazzup this week.....
23apr, monday.
1500m race (: running with grace and jud juz rocks my life (: it feels great and it was really a tough race, and a very good one too. :D and it probably will be my last chance to do so. thanks girls. i'll really miss it (: nonetheless. rock on grace!! next year you'll OWN it. and i came home with a very achy hamstring. waha!!

25apr, wednesday.
did double strengthening for physio (: which took bout 3hours odd. haha. met desiree at CSMC. so surprised to see her. waha!! her injury.. patella shift on both knees. sounds bad to have it on both knees. but she's strong!! haha.. fighter.. still gonna go for competition la.. haha.. pro (: and cuz of double strengthening.. i came home dead beat. but still slept only slightly earlier. x)

26apr, thursday.
the maryam show. (: gosh it rocks my socks can!! maryam really iz WOW. she's so cute and funny!! and her acting skills iz like as if she's in real life (: so natural!!! it was really a good show. den had training later in the afternoon. slacked out in bedok library a while den headed back to school for relay training.. and waited for training to start. turned out training was cancelled ): i really dunno what's happening ): i feel very sad that coach ain't coming. ): but den again, i feel relieved. it's mean of me.. but i cant help it. i cant do anything during training ): that makes it even worse ): argh. but i miss mr teo. he juz feels really distant now ):

27apr, friday.
training was cancelled again. but i had physio. did beep test ): iz 10.2 good?? i dunno!! but i did til that stage. ): pauline says compared to the australians it's very good already.. but question, are australians suppose to be better than singaporeans?? or izzit the other way round? ahhhhhhhh!! ): nvm.. after beep test did some power den some strengthening den some badminton? yeah. and all was not very well done which in other words iz very disappointing ): it sucks okay. really.

after it all, edmund gave me a lift to bedok interchange. bused my way down to BK's for cell group. combined cg with N88. well it wasn't very bad. it was fun doing refreshments and hiding in the kitchen with the cg. it's like laughing at each others blunders and having fun together. it's this kind of cosiness that's heart warming. it's this kind of cosiness that makes me feel yet again it's a cell group, it's my family, it's my connection in church. i love w115 ok. (:

28apr, saturday. today.
and today proves yesterday's thought. i know now that i really should find more time to hang out with the cell. i know now that this cell group iz my family and the ones i have in church as my friends. although there are still times whereby things go wrong and maybe awkward? well i guess it really took me that long to warm up to them, so i really am gonna treasure the times (:

BK called at 230 to ask me to reach at 345 to make friends with some new mongolian friends. and so i reached at 330 amazingly. made 3 new friends who were very friendly. and that was the start of my integration? it as if feeling as though you've got smth to do finally. something that you can be part of. maybe it's really time for me to consider joining a ministry.. i need to get busy. but den again there's As.... kk that aside.. ya. service was alright? den there's fellowship (:

dinner at simpang bedok. yummy. ben and singyee joined us later.. but still wasn't too late cuz ailin was still enjoying her prata (: was getting slightly tired. but after we left the place we started singing (: waha!! can i say it's w115's forte now? haha.. there was this caucasian couple that walked past us and smiled with thumbsups too.. waha!! interesting (: den we stopped by the oh so loved playground (: at first ailin, chia and i juz sat on a bench and sang.. but soon after we ventured into the playground and played. (: i had the privilege on swinging on the (wheeeeeeeee!!) swing :D i miss swings and i love em too!! and it helped to burn off some calories from the prata. haha! den came home. (: it's a very simple yet enjoyable night with the cell group. from now on i'll really try to have dinner every week!! although i know it'll be at the expense of my work. but whatever? bleh =P whatever it was, i enjoyed my night. thank you w115.

to you know who: thank you going the extra mile to help me. i may not know the total truth in everything but thank you. life would be much easier for both you and me if you'll juz let things be as it iz. i mean like if you'll juz be you and i be me. it really doesn't feel good to see the difference the change. you aren't the way i first met and known you. maybe cuz you know too much? i'm still me no matter wad so dun come treating me differently. i dun wan to be treated in a different light. i really wish i could turn back time. i dun wanna try striking up any conversation anymore. but i still do hope the time we share as a cg will get better.

*throbs @02:28
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Saturday, April 21, 2007

pre-cell struck my funny bone.

it is concluded that my poor knee iz overworked. ):
and it is still unstable that's why i keep feeling it shifting after longer distances or running ):
and now i'm told to not do long runs and fast runs. ):
do you tink i'll follow suit as what i'm told??
i dun tink so. maybe not until after sports day.
alpha has a name to live up to!!

okay.. so saturdays are never study days. woke up late ate lunch and i watched tv.
there was this show "a time for dancing" said to be based on a true story. but i guess it was a good thing i caught it. well, for one dance has always been special in my eyes and the dancers in the show was like magnificent, beautiful, admirable. but it's the baseline of the story that i still remember vividly. how it feels to be down and out forever in what you're passionate for. julie was diagnosed with stage4 cancer and there went her dance career. she struggled with it all with the constant focus on dancing, her coach and her voice. she was strong in the face of chemo all in the name of dance. even when her hair started to fall, she cut it short to put up a strong front, and she still looked beautiful (: and she didn't give up. although she did not defeat the cancer.. but she was determined. she went for the auditions for the reputed dance college. that was her dream, and it was a dream come true. watching her dance that audition, all the emotions the passion the strength in every move all unfolding infront of you all at once. it's like watching a fireworks show, full of awe. she realised her dream despite cancer. wow. (: den there's her best friend, samantha, who always thought she has been following julie's shadow for life. at the thought of losing julie she was became so hard up. she even thought julie was selfish. geex. guess when you suddenly start feeling helpless about a situation and all and you juz don't know what to do to help, you start bearing a grudge on the other and blaming that someone for having only herself in her eyes, and when everything becames all bout herself. and when sam finally came to terms with julie and herself, she begun to lead her own life, stepping out of the shadow she always thought she was walking in (:

if only life could be juz as simple as a sweet movie script..

okay.
18apr, wednesday.
national cross country day. i ran. and i regret running. not juz cuz of the knee. but cuz of other factors. although God kept me safe during the race, i still feel as though i didn't deserve to be in this race. sorry if i was the cause of your saddness ):

dinner after cross at bedok longjohn wasn't very happening as i had expected it to be. and the grilled fish iz way fishy. yucks.

20apr, friday.
happy birthday chyr!! (:
knee was still hurting despite two nights of iceing. but doesn't matter. had physio and i couldn't do agility and actually i could do much cuz of the knee. ): did the hamstring exercises and my left hamstring wasn't being good that day. in short it was a lousy day. whatever exercises i tried to do to train that left hamstring juz wouldn't work it. i feel the strain everywhere else on my legs but not the hamstring ):

at least pre-cell saved the day. had dinner with ailin, jonathan and ben at mac (: i cant rem the details of all the things we said and all the tummy-tickling stuffs. all i rem was i laughed so hard for the first time after sooooo long. it was worth going early for. i was really, seriously tickled. esp the one when jonathan said his lecturer talks like mr bean. dun catch it?? MR BEAN DOESN'T TALK!!! :D when we alighted the bus to our cell group venue, we all walked blindly with jonathan in the lead. and it turned out that he took us up the wrong block o.O haha. we were like wondering eh jonathan, which house izzit??? den he walked to the other lift and pressed the down button. the next time we know he was crouching down laughing. xD den while walking towards the correct block, ben tried to tackle a plastic bag that flew in his direction :D waha. and when jonathan said he laughed until his stomach ache when he was "patting" his chest. o.O waha!! that was pre-cell for you x)

guess that's all for now. the weather really sucks big time okay.. hate it. it's hot, humid and ya. the next time you know you start hearing some light thunder and it doesn't rain. back to hot and humid. sometimes i pity the sky, it cant make up it's mind to what to feel. BOO.

*throbs @22:09
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Tuesday, April 17, 2007

see the muscle fatigue process

yay (: at the rate i'm going i tink i'm gonna kill myself sooner or later.. haha x) like literally burn myself and my knees out. waha!! so let's seeeeeeeee...

12apr, thurday.
i did a 3k run. and not forgetting all the frantic run about looking for ppl and calling ppl. but the end of the day the muscle at the side of my right shin was straining.

13apr, friday.
had physio finally (: couldn't do power cuz my knee couldn't take the impact ): saddening. so after the functional evaluation, it turns out that i dun tink i'll be discharged soon my hamstrings are VERY weak. haha. and my quads iz too powerful le. uh-oh. unbalanced!! ahhhhhhh!! so ended up doing hamstring workouts. ended up with sore hamstrings and stomach muscles.

and smartly after physio i went to play badminton with the ever-so-pro edmund. waha! he's fit like noone's business la. maybe not as strong as ahfit but definitely fitter as an all-rounder. haha. so yeah. i played 3sets with him and he killed me. plus i had to hit alot of my shots out. BOO. waste energy. oh well!! it was a fun experience which landed me with a sore lower back muscle and arm muscle =X

after that went to jinxy's birthday party. so crappy la. we actually left a short while before the cake was taken out. boy should i have stayed for the cake. but nvm.. the food was good (: and we saw nice yellow porshe and an strikingly not bad looking actor. woohoo! lolx.

14apr, saturday.
and with all those aches i smartly went for cross country training at TURF CITY. 3.6km with hmmm.. warm up of maybe 1km?? geex. and why? because cross country competition iz on wednesday and this was my only chance left to refamiliarise myself with the route and all in case mr goh decides to throw me down. and something tells me he juz might. *i'm still hoping not!!*

by midday i was dead beat. came home for lunch bathed and slept for 2hours odd before leaving house again. met the ailin and david up at city hall to go to SIS together. okay. benny hinn iz SUPERB. although healing was not the focus of the service but the move of God was WOW. and choir always gets the benefits of it all. next benny hinn's coming, i wanna join his choir!!!! (:

15apr, sunday.
routine routine and more routine. with the fact that hmmm.. for the past few weeks i have already been dragging myself to tuition. maybe not. it's my mum who drags me there :D slacked the rest of the day but i'm still tired. wad an irony.

16apr, monday.
heats day2. and i learnt how to organise myself after a one time frantic experience. but i still got a little flustered. but i was much better than thursday. events went pretty smoothly and yay. i still tink alpha's strong k!! (: all alpha peeps who may by any chance read this, dun lose hope!! (: jiayou!

i had my 800m event. and i got quite nervous. started too fast and realised it only when i heard jon shouting to me to pace myself x) slowed down and maintained(?) for the rest of the race until the last 100m(?) sprinted to my max and timing of 2.53 according to rachel tang. not very good. arghhhhhh!! ohoh.. my 3k timing was 13.28!! =P

ok. and debs fell ): AHHHHHHHH silly girl!! take care!!!! hope the grazes are healing and so iz that twist/sprain or whatever it iz!!! ): nvm!! debs iz a very strong girl (: she even endured the alcohol swabs that racheltang "cruelly" pressed hard to clean the wound (: GO DEBS! (: you're so loved that seee!! jon, rachellim, racheltang, mr goh, gwen, sofia and even arief came running to you across tong's field (:

17apr, tuesday. today.
i overslept on the bus to school. a fellow tj girl had to wake me up. and i had to smartly take a bus28 today. so after the bus turned it's like sooooooo far back. waited for stupid bus 28/67 and both were so crowded that the bus driver didn't even bother to stop. GRRRRR. i was late for meeting with mr goh and so i ended up running to school. and somehow ppl juz found out. siyao said i ran past him(and i didn't even know) and den kenneth said wengseng saw me. and tt's how ken and shu knew. and so did the cross ppl cuz i was dripping wet. GRRR. i hate morning crowded buses. ):<

i didn't go for sports day heats 3 today. wonder how'd everyone fair. and i thrusted everything to kamun. hope she handled it fine (: thanks kamun anyway. yupp!! and turned out i received hmmm.. 3ppl looking for me (: that's an improvement. haha. instead i went for physio. expecting to maybe continue doing my hamstring exercises. bleh. turned out. pauline made me run 10k. and she wanted it under 50mins. RAHHHHHH. i protested and ran that 10k. 52.20mins. disappointing. and my muscles went all tight. i dun understand why the stupid treadmill counts distance so slowly. it feels like i've been running longer than 10k ): nvm!!! my muscles are aching and i'm gonna die tmr. cuz there's cross country tmr. i hope 1.my muscles wont pain on me; 2.my knees wont fail me; 3. mr teo wont kill me(he's gonna turn up at turf city) and i guess my only solution iz mr goh dun put me down in the 6ppl running!!!! ):<

i cant stand it but yaaaaaaaaaa..
omgomg i'm telling you alpha iz strong k!! (:

*throbs @19:41
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Thursday, April 12, 2007

summary + sports day heat1!

rahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh (:
it feels good. yeah it really feels good (:

finishing second in a 3km run for sports day (: and the person ahead of me iz my friend, cherlyn and a fellow alpha warriors. oh yeah. i'm second with no regrets :D anyway she's a much better runner so i lose willingly!! (: haha.. rock on cherlyn!!! (: oh man.. i can see you emerging top few for turf city!!!! well done alpha warriors on heats today!!
- esp jud, charlene, ken, melissa for clinching first for your respective heats!! and justin for coming in second!
i feel so crap for not watching all the events so i dun really know how the others faired. but nonetheless.. thanks to all who turned up today despite the lousy weather!! (:

and just some results... x)
- high jump: anh - 8th; weeshan - 5th, yuanjing - 4th (:
- triple jump: chawmeng - 1ST!! kenneth - 5th
- shotput: sarah tan - 8th, sandra - 1ST!!! (:
- 5k: keng sheng - 6th (: thanks for coming back for the run even though you were in VJ for soccer!
- 3k: all the alpha girls came in TOP6!!! omgomg!! we rock nuts :D cherlyn - 1st, me - 2nd, sarahs - 5th and 7th? hmmm.. not sure. oops.

nonetheless. thanks to rishik for filling in and trying your best. and mel khoo!! take care of that asthma of yours!!! ): you'll get better and turf city iz yours to fly (: thanks to all those who put in much effort esp samuel and aloy and hsing shen x) shixuan, kamun and bibi (:

and to all those who irresponsibly didn't turn up without even informing. GIANTIC BOO TO YOU!!! ):< still special thanks to bibi and kamun for helping out with the VERY flustered me at the start of the whole stupid thing. i hate rainy days. and i soooooo need to get myself more organised. bleh =P

okay. so tt's all for today. lots and lotsa things. but i'd say it wasn't that bad? i can safely say that right (: yay. but i still tink we could have faired better. if not for ppl like k.k. and some other nerds. BOO. so far for thinking they're very enthusiastic. i muz have thought wrong. bleh.

anyway.. since i'm here.. summary time!!! :D
7apr, saturday.
went to see the chinese physician and apparently i was told that my whole body's gone haywired. haha. my wrist iz almost outta it's socket(?), my left leg's slightly shorter than my right, my muscles have gone slightly puffed up cuz the nerve iz sorta outta place and my back's iz slanted. bleh. oh.. and my neck iz unusually straight when it's suppose to concave inwards. bleh. i wonder wad'd i do.. haha.. den went window shopping around chinatown with my mum. trained down to city hall and tried new food at season reasons(i tink) ok.. it's YUMMY delicious ok. juz slightly on the higher end side so more ex (: thanks mum *loveS* den i saw the donut queue. freaking long can. donuts are nice but i wouldn't over my dead body queue for an hour juz to eat one donut. o.O

yeah. den went for easter service with the ahs girls. den met jon and jane (: den went simpang to eat late night supper.. and i managed to catch a 24 and reached home at almost 1AM. lolx. busy and fun day. and easter service was not bad (: friday's one was ermmmm.. but saturday's was revised and it made more sense that's for sure (: i like the verstility in chc.

8apr, sunday.
tuition as usual. and i wasn't able to meet my twin up at queenstown being stuck at my grandma's. sad. sorry serene!! ):

9apr, monday.
sports day really keeps me BUSY and it's so sms-wasting. had try outs for for hurdles. now rishik and wilson and jasmine can jump hurdles already. yay (: den rushed off for titans briefing and after titans briefing had student official briefing. bleh. back to back events. thanks to alpha officials for turning up!! (: now mr goh iz pleased. yay. haha. and he's finally talking to me. waha!! okok. yeah. for finding all the last min subs cuz you cant make it. i'd say alpha has a few efficient and responsible peeps (:

anyway. econs test was ERM. i tink i screwed it up. but honestly for ALL my tests, it's all covered in less than one night of notes reading. not good.

10apr, tuesday.
i had crazy training and it's all self imposed torture. haha. and i pulled the rest of the team together with me. waha!! lolol. okay la.. to punish myself for missing physio on monday cuz of the stupid briefing. i did 150m of bearwalk with all the girls and nicholas.. den we walking lunges back for bout 100m? yeah. before that we threw balls did sprints and hmmm. stretch. waha!! den after that i did another 250m of bearwalk with nicholas!!! :D hee!! titans training huh =P lalalaa.. yay. nicholas iz like so enthu and i'm so glad he's in alpha. wheeeeeeee!! den went home with nic cuz we take the same bus!! waha!! but he stays further =P

11apr, wednesday.
chem test was a killer. and i got 6/22 for it. FAIL. yet another U. i seriously tink i should be more serious with all my class tests and spend more time studying for it. this chem test was only half studied cuz i fell asleep while studying the night before. bleh. had physio. den i got an immediate referal with the help of pauline and dr.chang to the dermatologist. now i'm on antibiotics to help improve the situation. i seriously hope it works!! but i had a very long wait in a very comfy clinic (: armchair aircon. unlike the normal plastic uncomfy chairs. haha :D den went back to CSMC and edmund helped me DTM my lousy aching muscles that refuse to budge. ouch. den he sent me home (: waha. ohoh.. and wilson's mum actually bought me polar pie to eat while waiting for the dermatologist. yipee (: thanks!!

12apr, thursday. today.
and this iz today with the heats and all. it POURED la. and it was wet. had trouble getting the competitors in order. esp when ppl keep running around everywhere all over the place. BOO. had to give out no. tags, take attendence, do substitution, find out who iz not there and call them.. and ppl calling me aside for no. tags and all.. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. i almost lost my head :p yeah. so after the heats got started things got better (: and by the time it was over i didn't even need to do warmups cuz i was already dripping perspiration. haha. did the 3k run. started too fast. bleh. died. 1. i didn't know who to pace if i was not to lead, 2. i was freaking nervous cuz all the other competitiors seems very good!! ahhhhhhhh. so yeah. i started too fast. and by the time i did 2k i was already losing it. but press on!! i completed my 3k second, dripping wet on my shirt and pants x) and in 13+? i was all focusing on cherlyn infront that i totally didn't even rem looking at the freaking clock once. geex. oh well!! second's good esp when first's alpha. that's hmmm.. 17points in total. yippee. and the bballers couldn't stop saying bye as i was leaving. waha. bye guys!! :D

to those who cheered for me during my run.. THANK YOU!! (: jud, debs, gwen, carol, jasmine, weeshan, jon, ashraf (:

*throbs @22:19
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Tuesday, April 10, 2007

i miss serene!!

i'm here to say i really miss my twin like CRAZY.

i really miss going crazy with you serene!!

i miss you VERY VERY VERY MUCH!!!! ):

i feel like not ever going off whenever i'm talking to you online. misses and loves.. sob.

SERENE TAY SHI LING
IZ SIMPLY GOD SENT!!!!

after A's we're going for dance class together. this iz evidence and serves as a reminder to what we intend to do together twin!! (: cant wait! x)

*throbs @00:39
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Friday, April 06, 2007

summary.

howdy..! it's good friday today and i'm going to be stuck somewhere and not with my homework.. how exciting. i desperately need to make more time for work work and work. read it, DESPERATELY.

okay. summary.
2apr, monday.
did a 10k run during physio (: 54.27mins. iz that good? still tink it's not good enough.. right jinxy? but doesn't matter.. i've decided to give up that okley deal with jinxy and so now he's gonna go find himself another runner for that duathalon. saddddddd. but nvm.. i've realised that it's only when i start running longer distances that running shorter ones feels like nothing much of a big deal. yay. so now 10k, 8k. wow. i love running (:

4apr, wednesday.
there was a career-cum-scholarship fair in school today. and it was boring and zzz-ish.. why? cuz Singapore Sports Council wasn't there!!!!! ):< so was left with the other hmmm.. not that interesting deals available.. and the only interesting thing was that navy and airforce one. it's very interesting to have a jobscope around that field ain't it? but i guess it still ain't what i'm really interested in. and so now i'm lost. what izzit exactly that i wanna be interested in?!?!

well after that had physio and my follow-up with the doctor.. seems like it's really no doubt that i'll be discharged soon.. really gonna miss the people over there. institutionalised.. i wonder whatever will happen to my mondays, wednesdays and fridays after i get discharged.. sigh..

5apr, thursday
today's training was hmmmm. slack. well the first interesting thing we did was bearwalk on the track :D it was interesting.. waha. unglam track bears walking in a line on TJC's very own track. haha. but it was fun. it was crystal's and vanessa's last training with us.. kinda sad that they'll be gone after today. well.. i'll still be able to see them both around in school!! so yeah.. well oh well!! as i was saying training was so slack that we trained on our own.. well cherlyn was the leader among us. waha!! face it cherlyn!! :D OAC will still be part of you!! x) the 50-50-100 situps i did, the 15-15 push ups we did, the 4 assisted pullups i did (and you did 2non-assisted).. gosh. i guess we have a new motive for training!! iz to create the lines on our tummies and to get stronger (: waha!!! so interesting!! well training ended in a hurry and today we were simply on our own. well it was fun. thanks for the wonderful training.. CLARE!! dun leave so early next time ya!! (:

6apr, friday. today.
well. i slept til 1330. waha! lunched. and slacking now. gonna go for easter with a friend later in the late afternoon today. and after that i'm gonna leave and go STUDY. i need to do that, really.

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Sunday, April 01, 2007

infatuation vs love.

happy april fool's day.

wow. it's april already. time really flies. but even though it flies crawling.. all of a sudden it feels like 3months have juz past me by in a blink of the eye. but yet living this 3months has seemed like half a year going by. wad an irony.

anyway.
31mar, saturday.
emo day? and i realised i forgot..
happy birthday samuel.
happy birthday zac.
yeah. okay. so i got emo-fied. went for service sat through the whole thing. and my cell group decided to go town with me. well towning at esplanade didn't really help much. maybe it juz incurred to me some thoughts but nvm. thanks for towning. i guess towards the end was better when i outta a sudden went a little crazy with ailin all because i suggested donut. after we parted i treated myself with anderson's ice cream and took a stoning session at the alphaO1 allocated area around the fountain of wealth. okay. it was a pity the fountain wasn't displaying it's beauty that day. why? cuz they opened it to the people desperate to get their hands on the water or fortune. lolx. couldn't find anything else to do so i juz came home. thoughts had to be shoved back. yes shoved.

1apr, sunday. today.
happy birthday justin.
get another round of routine sunday.
but today i learnt alot of things. mainly about infatuation and real love. how many of us actually think we know the difference between them both.. and as teens it's like whatever we call love iz actually in fact what adults call infatuation. well i can console myself this way can't i? lolx. well.. it's good to learn more by simply reading and accquiring knowledge. maybe this iz why i love books so much. they teach you things that sometimes people cant understand and express and teach. maybe people are juz too shy? or maybe people are juz as ignorant as i am. i guess whatever it iz, i tink it's always good to know the difference between what's lasting and what's not serious. lest it saves you from the nonsensical heartbreaks. and subconciously you know that what you've lost iz in a good way -- a blessing in disguise (:

*throbs @23:50
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